That's right folks! I'm pregnant! We are through the 1st trimester and the morning sickness has finally abated.
We are thrilled that Jesus has blessed us with this new life growing in my belly. For those that don't know, it took us over a yr to get pregnant this time. We were so blessed and grateful to have tons of amazing people praying with us and for us throughout our whole process. We held fast to the promise that Jesus made to us, that He would grow our family and we would have more children. We also knew that growing our family didn't mean we would have more children. It just meant that a bigger family was part of God's plan for us.
After the first 12 months of trying with no success, we decided to forgo fertility treatments, take some time away from trying to get pregnant, and instead have a real discussion about adoption, fostering, and the future of our family. During the next few months we prayed for direction, asked for even more prayer support, and then released our desires for more children to God. This was one of the hardest things we have ever done, letting go of control and trusting God completely to give us our hearts desire. But God didn't make us wait long and I was over there moon when I got a positive pregnancy test!
The 16 months that we tried to get pregnant were difficult. I had pictures of what my family would look like and one of those pictures was that our kids would be 3 yrs apart. Judah will be 4 and starting preschool before the new baby comes. So much for plans, hehe. But now, the timing seems so perfect. Maybe because it took a long time and we're grateful. Maybe because I'm remembering the sleepless nights with Judah as an infant and can't imagine having an energetic 4 yr old at home while I'm trying to do the new baby thing. Or maybe we're more in pace with God's will for us. I don't know the answer. I do know this though: God's timing is always perfect. He's soooooo good and wants so badly to give us good things. So thank you Jesus for loving us so much and knowing what is best for us even when we don't.
